Everything is Beautiful

Evening has fallen, and I'm about to head off to bed. Tomorrow is Monday and we start the whole rush again. I had a pretty decent weekend, I got my grocery shopping done, got out for some Korean food, and worked on some things on the computer. I also came up with another story idea for the file.

Emphysema, my grandmother was in the hospital last week and has been diagnosed with Emphysema. I'm sad, but she smoked most of her life so really, it's not a big surprise. She's home now and on oxygen but otherwise doing fine. I love her.

Edward Cullens, so what is it exactly that makes Edward so sexy and hot and everything? Is it Bella's obsession with him? Is it his extreme good looks? Is it his mysterious life? Is it the danger and thrill of being so close to death? Is it the thrill of the chase? You can apply that to either the book Edward or the movie Edward, I don't care. Robert Pattinson was pretty yummy as Edward. I don't know, in the book the fact he was ice cold and marble hard was just too hard for me to get past. I'll admit I kept thinking "careful, you'll chip your teeth". Bad Tina, I know, but what can I say?

Education, my kids are thoroughly enjoying school. I am torn on that. On one hand, it kills me, I really loved homeschooling, and I wanted it to work. On the other hand, I'm so relieved they enjoy it and do well with it, and it's kind of nice to know it's taken care of. I started culling through the homeschooling stuff and getting rid of it. It's hard, but I'm getting there slowly.

Empathy, yes the novel is still untouched and unloved. Poor thing, I pour my heart and soul into writing it and then I loathe it for the bloated monster it's become. I did find a program this weekend called "Revision Hell" which is a class/challenge thing where you focus on revising 20 pages a day for (I think) two weeks. I'm thinking about trying this. I seem to do better with controlled deadlines and motivation like that, and with it only being two weeks it's not really long enough for me to procrastinate and goof off on like NaNo did. I'm also thinking about enrolling in Holly Lisle's "How to Think Sideways" course, although I'm still deciding if I can afford the almost $300 tuition. I know that has nothing to do with Empathy, but I might not be able to think of another "E" word to go into it with so I tossed it in here.

Early, well I do have to get up early tomorrow to get the kids off to school so I better close here. I could come up with more, but I guess I'll start thinking of "F". Okay, so I'm not every day but I have been sticking to the letters of the alphabet, so I can't be all bad. ;) Have a great week and take care!!

Don't stop now

Dang it, another couple of days got away from me, again. I hate being sick!! Come on good health!

Decisions, I haven't written hardly anything in three or four weeks. Blech. But I need to get back into it, so I joined some groups, one of which offers workshops so I'm looking forward to getting involved in that. I just feel so guilty when I write because I need a job. Come on Cosmos, help a girl out here a little, eh? So I'm trying to decide how much time to devote to my writing every day where I don't feel like I'm cheating something else.

Danger, Will Robinson, Danger. Hee, that always cracks me up. I need to mow my lawn. If it isn't cut back soon it could become dangerous as we sometimes have snakes and snakes love high grass. So this week I'll learn how to use a lawn mower. Whoopee.

Don't you love it? Here I have been talking about how expensive Quickbooks is and how I need to find a copy to learn on and guess what came free with my printer cartridge yesterday? A free offer for Quickbooks Starter! Man, you ask and the universe provides, I tell you!!

Division, sixteen years ago today, my ex-husband and I officially became a couple. On April 4th we went to the medieval fair and by the end of the day we had passed from dating to "going steady". It took almost four more years before we were married, and then we were married for 12 years before we separated. Now here it is, April 4th again, and he took the kids to the Medieval fair today, and the coincidences just amuse me. What's four times four? Sixteen. (April is the fourth month, so today is 4/4)

Dragons, my son picked up a really cute stuffed dragon at the medieval fair. It's sitting on my printer at the moment, and it's red and green plaid. I wish I could sew things like that. Dragons are really neat.

Done for, well I really don't know what else to talk about with "D" and I still need to finish my lessons for the week so I guess I'm outta here. I hope you have a wonderful weekend and here's to warmer weather, excellent health, and financial security!! ;) Have a beautiful day!

Can't quit now

Coincidentally, I missed a day. What can I say, I was sick, I felt like crap, I had to run out to the store and deal with homework with the kids and homework for myself, and I actually sat down to write it once, and got sidetracked before I did it. On the positive side, I'm here now, even though I'm terribly pressed for time, which should make for a short post, right?

Cadbury's, well Easter is next weekend, can you believe it?? I always think of Cadbury's and their eggs at Easter time. When I was a kid I thought they had real egg yolks and it grossed me out every time I saw someone eat one. Ick!! Now I know it's not really egg yolks, but they still gross me out, I have no idea why.

Children, well today is my daughter's play. This will be her first ever performance and she plays a leopard. She has two lines and sings a song and dances a dance. It will be interesting to see how she does. I think she will be great though. My son is all over the performance thing, he loves to put on shows and film movies with his camera. Future director/producer/actor/everything else right there. I once asked him if he wanted to join the drama club when he got into high school so he could be an actor and he told me "Mom, I don't just act, I direct, do the sound effects, build sets, I'm the whole package." Too cute!

Coughing, man I'm ready to be over this cold. I don't like the general 'blech' feeling you have when you are sick. Hopefully it will be gone soon so I can enjoy my weekend.

Completion, I finished my lessons for the day! Whoohoo!! I'm loving Excel and Accounting now, I can't wait to sign up for the next cycle of those, Admin still wears me down and honestly, I'm testing out of the Computers for the Workplace. I know everything they are covering, what's the point of taking the lesson??

Crap, I really need to get out of here, I need to run to the school for my daughter's dress rehearsal. I'm sure I could come up with more 'C' things, but since I'm short on time I'll leave it there. I promise 'D' will be better. Have a wonderful day!!

But it's better if you do

Borrowed from a Panic at the Disco song (and I think they borrowed it from a book).

Boy, what a day! I've been sick off and on since yesterday. I feel like crap but there has been too much going on so I've been fighting the urge to crawl in bed and stay there all day. I think tomorrow I can afford a bit of rest before my lessons post but then it's back to the grind stone. I want to go to bed right now but I need to get the kids off to bed and I had to post my "B" alphablog because it would really suck to trip up and fail on day FREAKING TWO!!

Blogs, I enjoy reading blogs when people put interesting things on them to read. I also enjoy writing on my blog, but there is that fine line between being brutally honest and sharing everything and put only what you are willing to have read and repeated back to your face put out there. Still, to the people whose blogs I read, get off your ass and write something dang it!!

Baths, my kids always want to take a bath, not a shower. I don't blame them, it's pretty relaxing to sit in that warm water and just relax, or in their case play. I have a ton of rubber duckies, I mean literally I have like 600+ rubber duckies due to a fluke spontaneous purchase during the time of trying to make my marriage work. So yeah, bath time is a riot. If I'm ever rich, I want a house with a nice big tub I can take a nice bath in. I don't like to take baths very often, oddly enough I don't enjoy being wet so the quicker I can get into a shower, soaped up, rinsed off, and out on dry land again the happier I am, but it would be nice to have a nice tub for those times when I did feel like a real bath. Maybe there would even be room for me and all my duckies. ;)

Boyfriends, so I'm single again, and I have no idea what to do with that. I married my first boyfriend, and honestly, when he and I "dated" we really only went on like four dates total. The rest of the time was "hanging out". The idea of actually dating again terrifies me. I think I could be okay with being single forever, except at the same time I would like to have other experiences. I guess I'll let time work that one out for me. In the meantime, it makes a great topic for a book.

Books, man I love books. I have tons of books, everywhere. And then you have my dream of someday writing a few of my own. I'm going to have to get a lot more disciplined before I can do that though, right now I'm too flighty and I don't commit enough. I need to get my rear in gear and get to it. I'll admit though, every time I'm at a store that sells books, when I pass the book section I do a quick visualization exercise and see my book there on the shelf. Maybe I should work on some visualization exercises on editing, as that's where I am stalling now.

Brett Erlich and Ben Hoffman, two of the guys who make InfoMania wonderful. Brett has now branched off to have a second show called The Rotten Tomatoes Show on Current, I believe I've mentioned it before here. Ben is of course the tech report guy and Brett is the Viral Video Film School professor, among other tidbit parts on InfoMania. If you haven't checked it out yet, click a link and check it out.

Birthdays, my sister had a birthday this past Sunday, and I called but didn't get through to her, so Happy Birthday Sis, and I hope you had a good one!!

Better stop there. I'm feeling light headed and it's time to turn in. I hope you all have a beautiful night and a wonderful Wednesday!! I'm hoping to feel better by then so I can be back to 100%, and then if I could get a job interview or win the lottery that would just top the day off wonderfully. Or heck, why not have both?! ;) Take care!

Alpha blog challenge

Aloha! I'm starting the alpha blog challenge, 26 consecutive posts each beginning with the letters of the alphabet. I'm trying to get my blogging more regular (kind of like Metamucil for the soul I guess), so lets see if this helps. Now what to blog about?

Admiration, that's a good one. I admire people who go after what they want, who have beautiful senses of humor, and occasionally I'll sit back and admire the attractiveness of someone who has a personality tick that intrigues me.

Animals, I miss my pets. I bought a book on kittens at the book fair thinking it would be a way to look at the cute little snuggums but instead it just depresses me that I can never have a cat again. I have had pets my whole life practically, and I'll admit that not having one is really kind of depressing, especially since it isn't a temporary situation but pretty much permanent. Maybe I'll get a guinea pig.

Allergies, tied into the above, I hate stinking allergies! My poor kids, their lives are altered because of them. I blame my ex, he was the one that was always allergic to everything. I'm only allergic to medication. I seriously think I need to go see a professional allergy doc though, I just have to fight with my regular doc to get the referral. Why, with two children with allergies I cannot just ask for that appointment I don't know. Stupid rules!

Advice, you know that old saying about advice and assholes? Hee, that cracks me up. I get lots of advice right now. There is something about going through a divorce and looking for a job that just seems to be a neon beacon for people to come to me and dump advice on me. I get that people are trying to help, but some of the advice is just flat out stupid. I guess you just have to be a penguin in that situation and smile and wave, boys, just smile and wave.

Affection, I miss the kind of affection you get from a true partner. Granted I haven't really had it for years, my ex was MIA and AWOL long before he finally moved out, but I remember the tender moments from when we had them. There are times when you just want to be held, because being held lets you know that it will be alright. I miss that. Thankfully my kids love to give me affection so hugs and kisses are always rained upon me, but it would be nice to just be held by someone who makes it alright again.

Aggravation, my ex still frustrates me regularly, but I'm trying to get to the point where that stuff doesn't bother me. It's frustrating to still be looking for a job. I could do so many things if I could just find a company to give me a chance. I know if I hang in there it will happen, it's just getting frustrating because I need a job already.

Awesome, first I love this word and use it way too much, and second things I think are awesome this week: Twitter, InfoMania, Writing Quotes, Post-it notes, and small journals. Hmm, maybe I should make that a weekly thing too. I'll consider it.

Addictive, I'm off Dr. Pepper for a bit again, I guess I haven't had one in probably six days or so although I'll admit I'm pining pretty badly so if I get out today I might pick one up. Also there is a patchwork game at BigFishGames.com that is addictive in that it never seems to end!! I got up to level 93 after playing for two days (coming and going) and then I accidentally hit the wrong button and moved away from the page and so of course I had to start over. AAARRGGGHHH!!!! I didn't, I wasn't going to spend another two days working my way back up to there, but if anyone does make it to the end, leave me a comment and tell me how many levels there are in total, please?? I'm guessing there are 100, but I'll never know. :(

Accomplishment, I finished the leopard costume for my daughter this weekend. She is in a play on Thursday and so we were supposed to buy a sweat suit and alter it into a leopard costume. Have I mentioned here before that I don't sew? Or hey, how about the fact that in March nobody sells sweatsuits because it's spring and never mind the snow outside, we are selling bikinis and shorts!! I scoured the internet and every company in town and finally found one place that would order her a suit in her size. She really needed yellow but nobody had yellow so she ended up with white and so she's a snow leopard I guess. Anyway, we got the suit, painted spots all over it, whipped up a tail and ears and I'm done with it. My ex was here and he did help with some of the painting and he did stitch the tail to the pants after I finished making the tail, but I did stitch the ears and the tail itself. Yea me, right?

Accounting, hee, I just remembered two of my online classes start with "A" so here we go. I am taking fundamentals of accounting and I have such a love/hate relationship with it, it's not even funny. I like working with the numbers, I like filling out the little ledgers and journals, etc, but some of the logic there just is way over my head. Assets increase with debit? Liabilities increase with credit? That just doesn't seem right. I used to want to be an accountant because I loved money math, now I realize accounting has it's own math system and I'm not so enamored with it anymore.

Administrative Assistant, okay I really do not like this class. It's not hard, not really, but it is like slogging through mud. I'm not interested in what they are teaching, I fail to see how it's relevant, and I feel like it's a waste of time and money. I'm not sure what I thought they would teach me in this course, but apparently it isn't what they have been teaching me. I can't wait for this one to end and be done with.

Anything else? Hmm, well I'm still looking for a job, still editing Empathy, still trying to get back into writing, although I haven't written on Mirror Man or Hudson House in like three weeks. Yesterday I did write some on a new story called "Not Really Looking", which so far is all me and kind of a purge/story combo. I'll either alter it later to fictionalize it or I'll save it for my eyes only and leave it at that. I'm not really interested in shopping around my own real life story. ;) This week will be busy as I have appointments Monday, Tuesday, Thursday and Friday and I need to get out there and return my videos and library stuff before I get fines. Hopefully I'll get some job interviews in there as well. Fingers crossed!!

As always, take care of yourself, and have an awesome day!!